Anxiety running super high. Nothing will distract my mind tonight. Not ready to close a certain door to my past. My heart still belongs somewhere else; as crazy as that seems. I am going to have to have this conversation soon enough. Let things go to far as it is. Wish I had the carefree mind of a four year old sometimes. No worries, well at least not ones that weigh down so much fear. Tiger home opener tomorrow and I am not even excited bc I put myself in a situation I am not ready for. I want to start over.